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dnh - it's over

2005-02-07T01:31:00.000-08:00

not really a blog... buttt i figure writing all this out will help, even juz a little. =) lolz... thx ella =P 'i wanna know where i stand in ur life and i wanna know what ur priorities actually are'..

dnh - it's over..
here we go again.. figthin over who started the argument..
now why can't u and i juz get along?
its unfortunate.. that its hard for me to even give u compliments,
when all u do is bitch bout what is wrong..
it's over... and believe me gurl its better this way..
too many 2nd times arnd, too many times we let each other down :(
it'z over... i never meant for us to end up this way..
and even tho it hurts lyk hell, i'd rather u save tommorow for someone else.. =| (tony ha .. heh, talk about him more yeh?)

now dont u get teary eyed and act in disbelief like its a big surprise...
maybeee.. one day we can both look back and laugh at the stupid thingz that made us laugh..
and maybe decide to give our luv.. give our luvin another try..
i wish oh i wish... i didnt have to say all this...

>< how long must i cry .. how long do i have to try.. to make happiness my friend.. and how long will it be.. 'til u come back to me.. and let me feel ur luv again. i cant live.. if living is without u.. =[

MORE LYRICS FOR THE .... lyric-hearted? fuckd if i know LoLz

nina - foolish heart

i need a love that grows.. i don't wnat it unless i know...
with each passin' hour.. someone somehow.. will b there.. ready to share.
i need a luvv that growss.. i'm so tired of being alone.. =/
will my lonely heart.. play the part of a fool again...
before i begin.. foolish heart.. hear me callin.. stop b4 u start fallin...
foolish heart heed my warnin.. uv been wrong b4, don't be wrong anymore..
i'm feelin that feelin again.. and im bak in the game that i cna't seem to win..

thx to EVERYONE thats helped me out... T.T
what would i do without u's =)

well, dizzy out!$@! =D

no title.

2005-02-03T02:48:00.000-08:00

=D school's back, ive got mad teachers, im pretty ok about school, not stressd about homework ^^
stressed about her.. and the other her hahaha =p~ .. lets see =\ , yepppppp everyone always gets more time than me don't they? 'oh wanna come out on saturday? you can't can u?' ... ' i never said that ' ... 'so who u going with? wanna come with me?" ... "nah i dont know yet". ..
what the FUCKING FUCKING FUCK IS THAT?
tahts fucking hopless seriously, ive seen you ONCE.. in one entire month, we haven't ever done anythign TOGETHER .... always just with your friends woo woo fcukin' fun.. great! i get one day dedicated to me when i'd dedicate my entire week to you. i'd dedicate every spare second i have. but you don't seem like you want to even make the effort anymore? maybe you've lost interest? dont even call me anymore , you know i cna't call you because you seem to have problems with your family and they dont want guys calling and that's all fine.. FUCK ! yep awesome, your 8 yr old cousin says 'oh heaps of guys like frez... she's got two other boyfriends too! ken and anthony' yep .. i understand why an 8 yr old has the reason to lie aout that, fukn awesome ! you act so surprised when i'm fuckin cut and just hang up.. and then you ring back the next morning acted as if it was all planned?
BULLSHIT. im fucking sick and tired of this shit but im gonna keep up with it for a little longer.. for pleasure's sake.. umm , i dont wanna be depressed for my birthday or for valentines. so im not gona do anythign about it.. not yet anywayz.

now.. onto the other her... since she probably reads this.. im not gonna say anythign XD! all i can say i wish god timed things better between me and u ^^" but im happy how we are now hahaha =PPP i think you know how i feel but ive got no idea how u feel.. :D BUT THATS ALL COOL hehe

lets see, shoutouts!!!

_HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLLLLLLLLLLLLLZY BOO XOXOOX
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAKCEL XOXOX TO YOU TOO MONKEY ;)_

ok.. .. song lyrics for the week are ::

p p p diddy ! & mario winans, i need a gurl.. part 2!

What I need
(P. Diddy: Yeah take that)
Is a pretty woman next to me
(Ginuwine: A pretty woman yeah baby)
To share the dreams that I Believe
(P. Diddy: Dream with me, believe in me)
Maybe we could start a family
(Ginuwine: Start a family baby)
Someone who truly understands, how to treat a man
This is what I need

[Verse 2: Loon]
Listen to me now what should I say now? Come on ma
Been a whole day now I wanna lay 'round
And sip coladas, dipped in Prada
I'm smooth as Erik Estrada, dipped in dollars
We out in Vegas Nevada, bubble bath in the champagne glass
'Bout the size of a campaign ad
You don't know how you look to me
But if love was a crime you be a crook to me
Cause mommy I've done been around the world, seened alot of places
Been around your girl believe I read faces
I can tell she don't want me prevail
But I, learn my lesson watchin Sean bless it
So why listen to her and start guessin?
Mommy you ain't ready to ride to start dressin
I need a girl receive my mom's blessin
Confession, my love no contestin
I need affection

Girl what the hell is on your mind
I could be dumb but I'm not blind
There's somethin leakin in your mind
Don't look to good for you and me, always did agree
That ain't what I need, baby!!!

i miss you..

2005-01-17T21:20:00.000-08:00

... okay.. i dont know whats going on anymore =/ . .

'girl i know we spend hourz on the phone.. talkin about the. .. and in the back of my mind.. its him ur really thinkn bout.. rite?.. girl it feelz so right, n at timez it feels so wrong.. juz the fact u said one day we'd b together, thats wot keepz me goin on'

i really dont know whats up . . it's as if you dont ever wanan tell me anything anymore . . its as if we've grown so far apart in a matter of what... three days? why u actin lyk this? is it because of osmethign i did? something i said?/ =/ .. i dont know.. its always the little thigns that seem to add up and make a bigger picture... you never wanna tell me anything and i guess that's okay. . because i love you and i never wanna lose you and i guess its something we'll have to get over.. i just wish u culd tell me what i was doing wrong.. =/ i just cant find the words to tell u how much i care about u .. and that i just wanna noe whats wrong sometimes..

it hurts sometimes and i've never really had the guts to tell you that what u did hurt me because i can't accept the fact that someone like you could ever hurt anyone.. =[ it's just ... it all adds up in the end, it reminds you of him, you love the songs , the movies, and you're always listening to them.. doesn't that mena because you're always listening to them .. doesnt that mean that you _WANNA_ be reminded of him?.. maybe you miss him ? .. . and . .. well . . i don't know =/ .. if that ever did happen.. bleh. ..

i can never see you.. i ALWAYS want to be with you, but you seem to always be out with friends... or its always "i dunno" ... :( you never seem to make any effort to actually ask to come out, or you dont seem to WANT to go out int he first place.. and well , ive got no idea=/ .. if whenever im with you and ure gonna be with friends.. whats up with that? =/ i dont know if its very healthy, hehee :D

also - woooo , almost my birthday. wooo , my hand ISNT infected.. and um.. woo ... happy birthday to everyone whos had their birthday lately. ^^

important dates :
saturday 22nd - stefs bday AND work..
29th - becks bday, denim and white .. :D
happy bday to beckz :>

welllllllllllll. thats about it..

from dizzy ^^ 18.o1.05

and to end it all, k-ci & jojo - love me carefully :D

"1-Love is truely something
It's the one thing we can't live without
Makes you think you're invincible
Makes your heart feel so unbreakable
But you know love can hurt

So love me carefully
Just be true to me
Love me honestly
'Cause we know sometimes
Love can be done so painfully
So at the end of the day, all I want
Is you to love me
Carefully

2-My past brought a ending
Didn't think I'd ever love again
Then you came in my life
And you made everything seem right
So this time around I'm asking and beggin' you please
{Chorus}

Two hearts sharing something
So incredible, so unpredictable
I'll take care of you
So take care of me
I'll be there for you
You be there for me
Then we can love each other faithfully
Oh, so carefully
{Chorus}

Love me
Love me
But we know, oh
Sometimes love can be done so painfully
At the end of the day for the rest of my life
All I want is for you to love me carefully, ooh, oh
Love me carefully, baby"

I finally know...

2005-01-07T05:27:00.001-08:00

I've been searchin'
For the girl of my dreams
The one who'd give all of her love to me
You've been there as a friend indeed
Someone that I could depend
Through thick and thin
My strength when I wanted to give in

You're special to me
Made it easy when I felt lonely
If I only knew then what I know now
My search would've ended long ago

I finally know who she is
The girl you've been trying to help me find
And all of this time she's been right here
She's only around me when you are near

And you spend your time with her everyday
So you know she's perfect in every way
I've been looking for love, and she's looking at me
If you look in the mirror, you'll see what I see

Now woman, I'm in a predicament
And I don't know how to explain
To a friend that's been a friend for so so long
Should I tell you how I feel or leave it alone?
Oh oh, it's amazing how?
I never knew that it was you
And after all this time, it never crossed my mind
That in a friend, a love I'd find

You're special to me
And I hope that we can be much more
My heart is in your hands
So why don't we give love

I finally know who she is
The girl you've been trying to help me find
And all of this time she's been right here
She's only around me when you are near

And you spend your time with her everyday
So you know she's perfect in every way
I've been looking for love, and she's looking at me
If you look in the mirror, you'll see what I see

I'm waiting on a love
A love that stands through anything (anything)
And everything (everything)
With all my heart, I (I'm giving you my heart)
And every part of me (every part of me)
Cuz I know you're my destiny (know you are my destiny)
You'll see finally (now I see finally)

I finally know who she is
The girl you've been trying to help me find
And all of this time she's been right here
She's only around me when you are near

And you spend your time with her everyday
So you know she's perfect in every way
I've been looking for love, and she's looking at me
If you look in the mirror, you'll see what I see

I finally know who she is
The girl you've been trying to help me find
And all of this time she's been right here
She's only around me when you are near

And you spend your time with her everyday
So you know she's perfect in every way
I've been looking for love, and she's looking at me
If you look in the mirror, you'll see what I see

I finally know
I finally know
And I'm so glad He told me so
I thank you Lord for showing me the one
And now my search is done

And you spend your time with her everyday
So you know she's perfect in every way
I've been looking for love, and she's looking at me
If you look in the mirror, you'll see what I see

First Blog day

2005-01-07T05:05:00.000-08:00

wasssuppp ladz. okay on the phone to chris and wallace wondering what to do... figure we've never done a blog before and we were inspired by table to have a blog creating comp ! test etst